Hm...... long time never post any stuff ... was so bz with my assignments and also looking for the campsite for the Cf ..hahah thanks God is all settle by now .. I mean .. at least we got a place for now. After all the travel and stuff .. and all the sesat jalan case ... and we found Jungle Lodge ..and is real jungle neway .. never thought so in to the jungle at all. But is a cool place ..isnt it ? Esther is so so so wanted to see the camp at that place for now :) haha we goin again to reconfirm that place. ..
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ET he was so scared when he saw his mom arrive .. he knew something bad is going to happen , or perhaps ..something seriously bad is for sure going to happen. This is the greatest thing he had done .. he never realise it will actually turn up to be so serious. He knew he was wrong .. but he never know it can be so serious till the teacher actually call up the mom. He regret ... trully regret .. he saw his mom .. the anger that is show on her face ..and also ..the sad look .. He cried .. for the 1st time in the class .. he apologize for what he has done ... but ..that doesnt work ..
Later back to home, mom never bother talk to him, he sat in his room ..waiting for dad to back. He know when the dad knew bout it .. he seriously in deep trouble.
When times come ..the dad has arrive .. he heard his mom talking to the dad ... he never bother to know what they talking.. for sure is bout him .. the door been kick open .. he has been drag out from the room ..the dad stares at him .. and he get a stick in his hand ..and start whacking .. The dad turn him upside down ( that is seriously happen ) .. And that night .. he got chanse out from the house and have to sleep on the car. That night ..is a day that he will never forget ... Sleeping on the car is not a hard thing for him to do .. but he get used to it .. his dad do that sometimes .. whne he never pass up his work or any other type of mistake he had make ..
To be Cont .. The Life in Secondary ... The turning point ..
Friday, August 27, 2004
Thursday, August 19, 2004
The 1st story ... chilhood ..
Was having some fever now ..so I guess i will make this one short .... is bout the story of the childhood ..the 1st time I heard bout the name of the JC and something called Christianity .. (note : I wasnt a Chrisitan and .. pls forgive for any hard feeling and etc .. even the language.. )
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(How should I start... hmm .. )
ET .. a normal fella that grow up in the non christian background family, all he learn is bout the buddihst. He speak mandarin in house.. a pure chinese educated child .. and is normal that he goes to the chinese school.
At the age of 7, he enter SRJK (c) Chen Moh. The 1st year nothing went wrong ,got some best fren, one of them is Christian, while another one is buddhist .. a strong buddhist.. That time he just know that the Christian is all foreigner .. that is wat is content in his mind ..
At the age of 8 ... one of the fren told him the story of the buddhist and christian .. he dunno is it true or not, the fren told him that the christian saw down the statue of the buddhist ..
"What the hell ... how could they saw down the statue ?? that is so shit of them ...." He told this to himself ..
. he believe what the fren had told him, he got angry and he swear that he will never convert to Christian. Besides.. the hate and anger start grow in him, he thought all the Christians are bad and evil ... they are useless bunch of ppl .
Back to home ..he noes that his sister is a Christian ..and he start hates her .. not becuz of why ..but ..she is a christian .. Later on ..he saw how his sister treat his parents .. and he thought all christian teach ppl to do bad things ... they are satan and monster to him ....
Everyday he saw the same thing .. he told himself .
" When i grown up .. i will never join the stupid Cf and be Chrisitan, this is what they teach my sis to do ..and i wont do it to my parents ! "
Days goes on ..Years by year pass ..he never be a Christian like wat he swear at all ... no one ever mention to him bout the Good News ..No one ever tell him bout the Jesus Christ and etc ...
Everything goes dull ...nitemare year in 1994 ..when he is std 4 .... and he changed totally .. he dun want to be hardworking and be a top student anymore ... even thou he use to be a top student back to std 1 and std 2 ..
The incidence that happened in 1994 ... had make him changed his mind. It was so horrible until today ..he still clearly remember ..how teacher slap him infron of the class on his 1st day in that class ... he still remember wat teacher did to him .throw his bag down the building .... send him to headmaster .. ask him to wear a mask when in the class ... no one can imagine how is dat feel ... he lost all his confidence in studies .. he felt that no one will respect him .... so why should him do so ??
Std 5 ... and Std 6 .. is the same form teacher ..he got the 1st in the class for the 1st time in 6 years time .. he was so happy. He did this .. becus on what they parents had promise him ..
" Son .. get a good result ..if u can improve 20 marks for all the subjects .. i get wat u want "
He did it ... he work so hard for dat .. he thought time has come .. i can get what i dream for...He holding the report card happily go back to home and show the parents .. but ... somehow ..his joy wont last long ...
" Did I ever promise u to get u wat u want ?? u think u work hard ?? is all bout luck that u can score a good result "
Broken hearted .. the parents deny that they say dat .. he lost the motive of working hard .. he hide in his room and start crying ..
"For wat i get such a god damn farking result while no one ever appreciate it ! I work so hard .. who the hell noes ! I wont work hard anymore ! i will never get a good result ! "
The following exam ..he did bad ...and the mom shouted at him
" Do not ever ask me to sign ur report card ..I will never sign it and u better dun show me .or i tear it away ! "
He looking at the report that is in his bag .. he dun even dare to take it out ..
"but ... but ..tmr the teacher needs it .. what can i do?"
He takes out a pen ...holding it in his hand ..he start shivering ... "Should i do this ?? ... should i ??? "
Never think long .... he holds the pen tight ..hold his breath ...steady his hand .... he sign it ..he copy his own father signature .. he never think what this goin to cost him ..
The next day .....
The teacher shouted right infront of the class
"ET ! Did u sign it urself ! "
"N... no.. no .. i did not ..." he answerd ...by with a shivering voice ..
"I can see it .. the signature is not a normal one ! is definitely sign by urself !! Class rep ..call his mom !"
He feels terrible ... dizzy ..he is goin to faint soon ... he thought so ...
To be cont ......
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(How should I start... hmm .. )
ET .. a normal fella that grow up in the non christian background family, all he learn is bout the buddihst. He speak mandarin in house.. a pure chinese educated child .. and is normal that he goes to the chinese school.
At the age of 7, he enter SRJK (c) Chen Moh. The 1st year nothing went wrong ,got some best fren, one of them is Christian, while another one is buddhist .. a strong buddhist.. That time he just know that the Christian is all foreigner .. that is wat is content in his mind ..
At the age of 8 ... one of the fren told him the story of the buddhist and christian .. he dunno is it true or not, the fren told him that the christian saw down the statue of the buddhist ..
"What the hell ... how could they saw down the statue ?? that is so shit of them ...." He told this to himself ..
. he believe what the fren had told him, he got angry and he swear that he will never convert to Christian. Besides.. the hate and anger start grow in him, he thought all the Christians are bad and evil ... they are useless bunch of ppl .
Back to home ..he noes that his sister is a Christian ..and he start hates her .. not becuz of why ..but ..she is a christian .. Later on ..he saw how his sister treat his parents .. and he thought all christian teach ppl to do bad things ... they are satan and monster to him ....
Everyday he saw the same thing .. he told himself .
" When i grown up .. i will never join the stupid Cf and be Chrisitan, this is what they teach my sis to do ..and i wont do it to my parents ! "
Days goes on ..Years by year pass ..he never be a Christian like wat he swear at all ... no one ever mention to him bout the Good News ..No one ever tell him bout the Jesus Christ and etc ...
Everything goes dull ...nitemare year in 1994 ..when he is std 4 .... and he changed totally .. he dun want to be hardworking and be a top student anymore ... even thou he use to be a top student back to std 1 and std 2 ..
The incidence that happened in 1994 ... had make him changed his mind. It was so horrible until today ..he still clearly remember ..how teacher slap him infron of the class on his 1st day in that class ... he still remember wat teacher did to him .throw his bag down the building .... send him to headmaster .. ask him to wear a mask when in the class ... no one can imagine how is dat feel ... he lost all his confidence in studies .. he felt that no one will respect him .... so why should him do so ??
Std 5 ... and Std 6 .. is the same form teacher ..he got the 1st in the class for the 1st time in 6 years time .. he was so happy. He did this .. becus on what they parents had promise him ..
" Son .. get a good result ..if u can improve 20 marks for all the subjects .. i get wat u want "
He did it ... he work so hard for dat .. he thought time has come .. i can get what i dream for...He holding the report card happily go back to home and show the parents .. but ... somehow ..his joy wont last long ...
" Did I ever promise u to get u wat u want ?? u think u work hard ?? is all bout luck that u can score a good result "
Broken hearted .. the parents deny that they say dat .. he lost the motive of working hard .. he hide in his room and start crying ..
"For wat i get such a god damn farking result while no one ever appreciate it ! I work so hard .. who the hell noes ! I wont work hard anymore ! i will never get a good result ! "
The following exam ..he did bad ...and the mom shouted at him
" Do not ever ask me to sign ur report card ..I will never sign it and u better dun show me .or i tear it away ! "
He looking at the report that is in his bag .. he dun even dare to take it out ..
"but ... but ..tmr the teacher needs it .. what can i do?"
He takes out a pen ...holding it in his hand ..he start shivering ... "Should i do this ?? ... should i ??? "
Never think long .... he holds the pen tight ..hold his breath ...steady his hand .... he sign it ..he copy his own father signature .. he never think what this goin to cost him ..
The next day .....
The teacher shouted right infront of the class
"ET ! Did u sign it urself ! "
"N... no.. no .. i did not ..." he answerd ...by with a shivering voice ..
"I can see it .. the signature is not a normal one ! is definitely sign by urself !! Class rep ..call his mom !"
He feels terrible ... dizzy ..he is goin to faint soon ... he thought so ...
To be cont ......
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Alrite ..shall we start the real story of ET ?
Heheh I guess the coding and everything .. hehehe so ..should i start the Story of ET ?? hahha ..well ..well .hope there is ppl come in and read .. :) the story of ET ... lets have some intro .. ET ...yeah ...actually is me .. a story of me ..the path i come thru from a non chrisitan to a christian ... to this story ..will be having some short briefing on my 1st heard the name of JC ..and Christianity .. The story is based on wat i remember ..and ..yeah ..is true ... From the begining ..there is some vulgar words ...but .. pls forgive me k ? coz that is wat i say last time and react... Some part of story will be kinda bored i guess. .hahahha but that is my life that i've gone thru ..with a non christian background family ...
Hope ya all enjoy ...
Hope ya all enjoy ...
Monday, August 16, 2004
I guess...today just not my day ..
Craaap ..is hard to cope with this kind of class ..being a class rep .and trying my best to tell them wat happening is so hard .. already send them msg thru msn and even tell them to inform others.. I thought they are those trustable ... but wat happen next ?? woke up and go to college.. they blame me "U never tell ! " .... ... ... I really no idea wat to say ...I did my job as a class rep ..and this is wat I get from them .. I guess ...at the Year 2 I'm not goin to take the class rep job ..even they vote me ..and I just ask someone else to do it ! Since they think I never do my job ..think u r better ?? then be in my shoe . Grrrrrrrrrr. !!! *grins*
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UWaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! my neck ache ! is so hard to do my work ..feel so uncomfortable with my head 'senget' .. sigh. ..do everything also kenot do properly ... anyone to twist my neck :P
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UWaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! my neck ache ! is so hard to do my work ..feel so uncomfortable with my head 'senget' .. sigh. ..do everything also kenot do properly ... anyone to twist my neck :P
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Haha
Yes !! Finally I get some picture up to the blog :) at least it doesnt look so boring or girlish rite :P at least i can see the picture will take out all the white color background neway. :) Just up here to drop some msg ..and now BACK TO MY WORK !!!
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Sigh ...another tired day ..
Another tired and stupid day. Been sleep very late and wake up early in the morning ..and start deal with my pile up assignments .. ppl might tell me that not suppose to do my work in the very last minute.. crap ! I hope i do have the choice to not to do last minute work. .just as long my course and my college just have some mercy on us .all sorts of assignments been pass to us .. Just like the speed of the mp5 shooting. Fast and accurate. Will never have the time to tell the world "I have done my assignements !!" .. y ?? Before 1 is done ..the 2nd and 3rd is been pass down to us .. just simply imagine round 20 assignments less than 12 weeks ?? Sigh ..my daily routine makes my life bored .. The Craziness of The KBU JND MM YR 1
~ Listening : Planet Shakers - Is All About Jesus ~
Nowadays is very hardly to see me sleep more than 5 hours or so .. Even i seldom eat .. no idea wat had just happen to me .. I just feel tired very tired in all sort of things .. and my Knee Is getting worst !! I start feeling hard to walk ! arg h!!!! . Should I go for surgery ??? Is just bout 50 % chance to get recover... I really duno how I gonna face the truth of I can't get back to normal ..
~ Listening : Poetic Ammo - Who be The Player ( yeah ... Local Band)
Life is short isn't it ?? Just so fast, is already round August .. and I already 20 ! dat old .. flash back to all the years .. I never really get to enjor my life .. my life is just busy ..rush here and there. Everyday, once I open up my eyes .. and i know this is another day I gonna bz with.
~ Listening : Pop Shuvit - Conversation ( yeah .the another best local band )
Think back to my primary days .. is a nitemare to me .. At the early stages I enjoy ..until std 4 .. my life change .. I claim that 1994 is the most terrible year in my life ( so far ) I start change after 13.. yeah ..CHS time .. change my look ...the way talk ..the way i treat ppl ..is all total diff .. .change to wat ? :) the one i be now . Is either good or bad, I won't say a thing. Is up to you all to think and judge. I won't care bout wat ppl said bout me .. that I just try to act goodie goodie .. :) I know wat i doin now ..and i will do wat I want to do .. I want to give wat I cant get when i was young. So .. those ppl that I been fetch u all back :) dun call me as driver k ? I just try to help whenever I can. LoL .. I never get tired to fetching ppl back at all .. weird of me. But good thing is my parents dunno that I doin this .. I know they won't like it .. beside . mom will just scold me ...for mixing up with those ppl that are younger than me .. Anything wrong with that ?
~ Listening : Pop Shuvit - Skaters Anthem
~ Listening : Planet Shakers - Is All About Jesus ~
Nowadays is very hardly to see me sleep more than 5 hours or so .. Even i seldom eat .. no idea wat had just happen to me .. I just feel tired very tired in all sort of things .. and my Knee Is getting worst !! I start feeling hard to walk ! arg h!!!! . Should I go for surgery ??? Is just bout 50 % chance to get recover... I really duno how I gonna face the truth of I can't get back to normal ..
~ Listening : Poetic Ammo - Who be The Player ( yeah ... Local Band)
Life is short isn't it ?? Just so fast, is already round August .. and I already 20 ! dat old .. flash back to all the years .. I never really get to enjor my life .. my life is just busy ..rush here and there. Everyday, once I open up my eyes .. and i know this is another day I gonna bz with.
~ Listening : Pop Shuvit - Conversation ( yeah .the another best local band )
Think back to my primary days .. is a nitemare to me .. At the early stages I enjoy ..until std 4 .. my life change .. I claim that 1994 is the most terrible year in my life ( so far ) I start change after 13.. yeah ..CHS time .. change my look ...the way talk ..the way i treat ppl ..is all total diff .. .change to wat ? :) the one i be now . Is either good or bad, I won't say a thing. Is up to you all to think and judge. I won't care bout wat ppl said bout me .. that I just try to act goodie goodie .. :) I know wat i doin now ..and i will do wat I want to do .. I want to give wat I cant get when i was young. So .. those ppl that I been fetch u all back :) dun call me as driver k ? I just try to help whenever I can. LoL .. I never get tired to fetching ppl back at all .. weird of me. But good thing is my parents dunno that I doin this .. I know they won't like it .. beside . mom will just scold me ...for mixing up with those ppl that are younger than me .. Anything wrong with that ?
~ Listening : Pop Shuvit - Skaters Anthem
Friday, August 13, 2004
Argh !
Argh ! Assignments start pile up now ! and I just had one more that need to pass up very soon ..and I really need to do it fast ...so sorry for the blog that won't be add in any new thing or perhaps fix it yeah .. .. btw ..m sick !! wat a nice day to fall sick now .
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Dats kewl eh .the Talk show that happen in Cf =) josh and joel makes me think that is real, until I saw joel start reading the paper that lie beside him :P haha.
Well well ..just incase u all dunno ..so i just put it here ... this and next year will be my last year in Cf, that means I will fade off right after that. That doesnt mean that i wont back to Cf again ..but i will back ..not dat often like wat happen now, particularly i just back every single friday. When time comes ..i need to move on. I will tell the motive i back to Cf .. to some that dunno my actual motive. But I believe I have told some of ya. Througout this 2 years that i spend in Cf .. i learn lots of stuff as well. I get to noe more ppl also. Just like few of them dat i just noe round this year. :) Cow ..kryz .. Ian .. Joon Ming (is it ? ) Ming Yuan and Jian Wai that i known recently :) Cf brings lots of happy moments to me. I just love to be in Cf. Is a sad decision ..but ..i have to.. yeah ... i have to..
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Dats kewl eh .the Talk show that happen in Cf =) josh and joel makes me think that is real, until I saw joel start reading the paper that lie beside him :P haha.
Well well ..just incase u all dunno ..so i just put it here ... this and next year will be my last year in Cf, that means I will fade off right after that. That doesnt mean that i wont back to Cf again ..but i will back ..not dat often like wat happen now, particularly i just back every single friday. When time comes ..i need to move on. I will tell the motive i back to Cf .. to some that dunno my actual motive. But I believe I have told some of ya. Througout this 2 years that i spend in Cf .. i learn lots of stuff as well. I get to noe more ppl also. Just like few of them dat i just noe round this year. :) Cow ..kryz .. Ian .. Joon Ming (is it ? ) Ming Yuan and Jian Wai that i known recently :) Cf brings lots of happy moments to me. I just love to be in Cf. Is a sad decision ..but ..i have to.. yeah ... i have to..
Thursday, August 12, 2004
The 1st story that been posted ..
Hello, this will be my 1st thing that post on, I really got no idea how this works.. but i try my very best to get it as soon as possible...Yeah .. i hope i do ..yeah ..hope so ...
Well well ..lets see ..... dang ! I working for so long time just to get the skin done .. .. argh !!! i hate coding i hate coding !! y can't I get free of those stupid coding dat bothers me ..or should I say haunting me for pass couple of years. And now I need to face it again ... urgh !
This skin is my fav wan ..looks like girlish eh ?? hahaha neway, i really dun like the font color that appear ..is like so blur and so foggy to me ..ah ...reminds me bout the weather today ..i smell smoke in the air ..
Well well ..lets see ..... dang ! I working for so long time just to get the skin done .. .. argh !!! i hate coding i hate coding !! y can't I get free of those stupid coding dat bothers me ..or should I say haunting me for pass couple of years. And now I need to face it again ... urgh !
This skin is my fav wan ..looks like girlish eh ?? hahaha neway, i really dun like the font color that appear ..is like so blur and so foggy to me ..ah ...reminds me bout the weather today ..i smell smoke in the air ..
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